Please Pray

I am feeling all of the sudden very overwhelmed and having a hard time trusting the Lord of Everything.  I know He is in control, I know Robbie and I have been faithful, and I know He will see us through - yet, I could really use the encouragement of your prayers for our finances.

Robbie and I were always blessed to have no debt, other than our mortgage.  We are blessed that I can be a stay at home mom, even though he makes very little.  We choose to survive with few material luxuries (no new clothes, no cable, two date nights out per year, etc...) so that we can prioritize pouring into our children the values we hold dear.

Yet all our sacrifices sometimes just aren't enough, and this is one of those times.  I mistakenly sent out our mortgage payment a week early (I write out all the checks at once and doll them out at the right time, usually).  This caused our bank accounts to EMPTY.  I had to go to the bank today to transfer money from Eva's account into ours, just so the account could stay open.  Things aren't usually so tight for us, but we've been very generous lately with a few things and I lost track of the specifics :/  and our savings got low... and now, it's gone.  For me that feels like glass in my stomach, an ache in my heart, a nagging worrisome voice in my ear.

Robbie won't get paid until next Wednesday, 6 days from now.  Our cupboards aren't bare, our gas tanks are half full... but it's gonna be a real stretch to make this work.

Oh, and then, just now at lunch, a filling broke out of a molar in my mouth (quite possibly 15 years old) and my mouth is throbbing.

I know God is testing me.  I want to feel the trust that is inside me.

Also, I could really use advice on how you manage your finances, if you're good at it.  We, apparently, need a better system.